THE WRITER A LA MODEM
Or, the Death of the Author on the Installment Plan
First published as "Let's Get Digital" in
The Voice Literary Supplement, March 1993
I became a writer the day I bought my first computer, and that, by no
coincidence, was the last day I knew with any certainty what a writer was.
When I was four my father--nudging me toward a career he was well on
his way to failing at--gave me a tot-sized typewriter for Christmas. From
then on, I knew that to write was to claim a kind of patrimony, and in
later years a host of cultural cues filled me in on the details of the
inheritance. It was a title handed down from generation to generation of
privileged latter-day artisans, a select few granted access to the costly
medium of print by virtue of their ability to shape raw experience into
language vivid enough or lucid enough to compel recognition by the inarticulate
many. I wanted that title--wanted it with an increasingly anxious hunger
the more conscious I grew of the possibility of failure--and spent much
of my education preparing to receive it. I read hungrily, wrote dutifully,
and by the time I left school had written volumes: poems, plays, stories,
a ream or so of essays. I'd even been paid for a few of them.
But I knew what a writer was, and I didn't feel ready to call myself
one. In retrospect, I suppose a little faith and a few more bylines was
all I really needed to make the leap, but at the time, perhaps subconsciously
reopening that primal Christmas present, I fixed on the means of production
as the missing ingredient in my writerly self-image. I knew that the typewriter
was ceding its role in textual manufacture to the personal computer, and
that the computer demanded a far greater capital investment. But I was
willing to make the sacrifice. Twelve hundred dollars for a piece of hardware
might have seemed steep; but as the price of a professional identity it
was peanuts. I forked the money over gladly, threw the machine in the back
of a cab, and came home knowing, at last, that I was a writer.
What I didn't know was that the same invention that had just confirmed
my entry into the writing class had also created a world in which the social
and technological structures constituting that class were melting into
air. It was a world in which modern definitions of the writer--of authorship,
of publication, of intellectual property--were coming into question on
a daily and practical basis; a world that continues to grow and to pose
its questions while most writers remain only dimly aware of its existence;
a world I stumbled into more or less by accident.
The accident was a modem, a $75 add-on that enabled my computer to pass
data to and from other computers through a telephone line. I bought it
for professional reasons--to file articles electronically with the newspapers
and magazines I was starting to write for--and didn't imagine I'd find
any other uses for it. But soon enough those other uses found me: word
of modem-accessible message-bases known as bulletin boards reached my attention
and piqued my curiosity. I dialed a Long Island number supplied by a friend,
connected with a PC sitting in some hobbyist's basement, and saw on my
screen a sight now transparently familiar but then tantalizingly new: a
menu listing pages and pages of messages, posted by dozens of callers and
grouped under topic headings ranging from the general (chat, politics)
to the obsessively specific (bowling, Metallica) in a haphazard catalogue
of contemporary human enthusiasms.
I plunged in, and as I moved aimlessly through the texts I felt my curiosity
grow. I gradually realized that the messages themselves weren't what drew
me in so much as the thrilling and unsettling novelty of their medium:
this was public-access publishing, writings printed and disseminated with
a single phone call. In tones pitched somewhere between the breezy intimacy
of conversation and the measured advocacy of essays, people were writing
publicly about their lives and about their cultures and about whatever
else writers spin their products from--yet none of these people were writers
as I had come to understand the term. Inside the social sphere of the bulletin
board it was impossible to define a privileged class of writers, simply
because everyone within that sphere was a writer by definition.
In the following months my fascination with this strange state of affairs
led me from one bulletin board to another and showed no signs of flagging.
In time, though, it came to mingle with a nagging frustration: my own attempts
at participating in this new form of writership seemed to be missing the
mark. Trained to write in competition for scarce access to publication,
I couldn't help posting messages of futilely aggressive craft, messages
that strove to rise above the surrounding dialogue, yet invariably failed
to win the recognition I had to admit I was looking for. Suspecting I just
hadn't found the right audience yet, I began to explore more sophisticated
variations on the humble basement bulletin-board theme. But even in upscale
electronic salons like the San Francisco-based WELL and New York's ECHO,
where semifamously print-published writers could be found mixing with an
emergent digital bohemia, I discovered that no amount of craft could generate
the privileging aura that a writer enjoys in print. The problem was not
in the audience after all, but in the medium. When finally I gained access
to the mother of all bulletin boards--the ``newsgroups'' circulating like
a global storm system of text through the thousands of computer networks
linked together in the vast and rapidly expanding Usenet--it hardly surprised
me that, even faced with a readership of millions spread through dozens
of countries, my writerly instincts were no more appropriate than they
had been on my local hobbyist's basement board.
It could be argued, of course, that my failure to get the hang of things
arose not because of my professional background but because I had misconceptualized
the very nature of online communication. After all, it does approach ludicrous
understatement to think of the massively complex webwork of computers my
modem had led me into as a glorified publishing industry--which is one
reason it's become fashionable to speak instead of ``cyberspace,'' a notion
whose cosmic sweep in some ways better describes this new technology. The
term migrated out of William Gibson's ``Neuromancer,'' where it names a
21st century virtual dimension, entered into via a neuroelectronic interface,
in which the world's data networks unfold before the user as a sensually
vivid geography. Though Gibson himself knew squat about computers when
he wrote the book, the aptness of his vision to existing networks is immediately
apparent to anyone logging on for the first time--one senses, in the imaginary
conversational present embodied by the bulletin board's array of messages,
and in the computer's ease of mobility through remote chambers of information,
that one has stepped into an alternate spacetime.
I sensed it, anyway, and recognized the pale incompleteness of traditional
writing as a model for what happens online. Yet I sensed as well that Gibson
in his fertile ignorance had gotten the picture only half right. Cyberspace
is a place all right, but it is an insistently textual one--insistently
and in fact traditionally, for cyberspace's grand illusion of alternate
dimensionality represents not a departure from the nature of writing but
a refinement of it. Writing, since its invention, has been a technology
of virtual presence, simulating the here-and-nowness of both the writing
subject and of whatever conceptual or sensual objects that subject cares
to conjure. The technology of cyberspace may dazzle with its newness, but
it really only extends the capabilities of an artificial-reality machine
older than the Pyramids.
And if it extends the capabilities of that machine, it extends the perversities
as well. For just as old as writing's power to fake presence is its tendency--the
meal ticket of contemporary literary theory--to shatter the illusion in
the act of creating it, to smear the transparency of communication with
the opacity of its own mediating devices; and cyberspace bristles with
instances of this tendency. Some are ornamental or playful, like the way
the materiality of the signifier leaps forward in the skewed, subculturally
assertive typography of young software pirates, who call themselves warez
d00dz and wreak havoc on language and copyright laws from the safety of
their ``k-k00l uLtRa-eLyTe s00pEr SeKrEt'' bulletin boards. Others are
more pervasive and disturbing, like the constant threat of ``flame wars''--arguments
that rage out of hand when the powerful rhetorical weaponry afforded by
the written word warps minor disagreements into escalating full-frontal
assaults.
But nowhere does the textuality of cyberspace assert itself more forcefully
than among the most ambitious online experiments in creating full-fledged
virtual environments. Known as MUDs--short for multi-user dimensions--these
online hang-outs recast the bulletin board as lived theater, drawing on
the venerable hacker tradition of computerized Dungeons & Dragons gaming:
callers interact with one another in real-time through self-made personae,
exploring together the nooks and crannies of textually constructed caverns,
mansions, back alleys, forests. There's a lysergic lucidity to these spaces,
a heightening of the illusion of presence to within a hair's breadth of
the fully realized ``consensual hallucination'' that defines true cyberspace--and
yet the stuff they're made of is the purest literary convention. Simple
he-says-she-says dialogue cues organize the communication, environmentally
evocative descriptions set the scenes, and the whole experience moves forward
line by line in a balanced alternation between the two modes, just like
any work of fiction.
Thus it's done me little good to recognize cyberspace as the proper
metaphor for online communication, for rather than proving the irrelevance
of my writerly anxieties to this strange new realm of interaction, cyberspace
proves at every turn to be just another name for writing itself. Nor does
it mean much to point out that the increasing capabilities of computer
networks will sooner or later bring other media like sound and video encroaching
on the present hegemony of text. Even if these other channels succeed in
banishing text from the online universe (which seems unlikely given the
unique fitness of the written word to vast realms of interpersonal communication),
their digital form will endow them with writing's most significant properties
as a medium: its ease of manipulation, of reproduction, and of dissemination.
Thus, inevitably, the modemed world--a world you and I will be living in
more and more as its current exponential growth pushes it well into the
cultural mainstream--will remain in its fundamental logic a written one.
What will change just as inevitably, however, is the network of social
relations that writing both defines and is defined by, and my own encounter
with the online economy of textual production tells me this change will
be as sweeping as what followed in the wake of Gutenberg's invention. I
have seen the writing on the bulletin board, and it promises an irreversible
diffusion of authorship throughout the social body, a blurring past all
recognition of the line between reader and writer. The structure of written
work grows more diffuse as well--the intense coherence of heroic individual
efforts gives way to the drifting dialogue of message bases and the trippy
collaborative fictions of MUDs. And good luck trying to cull any regulating
canon from this woozy corpus. You'll find no center in the haze of ephemerae;
even if you do, it will not hold.
That this set of changes conforms more or less precisely to the implicit
prescriptions of the last two decades' most sophisticated and subversive
literary theories will, in the eyes of many, be sufficient cause to celebrate
it. But my own reasons are more personal. I am happy to have earned the
title of writer; it will continue to provide my living and feed my sense
of identity. But I don't think I will ever lose the fear that has partially
motivated every public word I've written--the terror of exclusion, of the
silence to which the traditional writer's audience is by definition consigned.
And it gives me no small satisfaction to think that the system of centralized,
limited-access publishing that instilled that fear in me will be dwarfed
into irrelevance by a wide-open system that, via Usenet alone, already
publishes the equivalent of 1000 books a day.
My inability to find a voice appropriate to this system is of some concern
to me, but I'm not sweating it. I imagine de Tocqueville felt the same
way in his travels through young America--formed in an old regime, sympathetic
to the new, confident he was seeing a better future but unsure of his place
in it. And then I imagine too that my uncertainty itself may be enough
to guarantee my place in a future where no one knows with any certainty
what a writer is--only that everybody is one.